Dear Diary,

People have been really irritating.
Well I don't know whether its just me
or them.

No specific people. Just basically
EVERYONE.

From family to friends to girlfriends
and boyfriends and people closest to me.

Or maybe I'm getting my period soon.
Or its a phase.

Well birthday is coming but i really don't feel excited.
okay maybe just a incy wincy tiny bit.
but other than that not really.
I don't even know what I'm doing on the actual day.
Probably stay at home watch teevee use the PC
read my book and eat stuff which i can find at home.

Speaking of books, I have yet to finish it.
Shit!

There is no freaking food in this stupid household.
More like houseHOLE.
Like i have to heat up my own food
and living with a maid for most of my life
I'm not used to it!
Goddammit.

Mom, Dad, Siblings
have been super annoying.

Like my dad keeps bugging me to
get my I/C picture taken.
And I'm like there is still time.

And my mom keeps making empty promises.
and like promises me to buy me stuff and
in the end she doesn't.
and she always finds faults with me.
and she loves to ask questions which
she knows the answer already.

Siblings are also irritating nak mampos.
My brother keeps on bugging me to do stuff.
I really regret missing him.
Although he can be nice.

on his birthday that day,
I gave him a card saying,
Happy birthday faiz
may you NOT be an irritating older brother
and so on.

Sisters are fine but i dunno just not connecting with them.

Omigod i really want to go to the Cristina Aguilera concert
like BADLY!
naah but i don't think its happening.
unless there is a miracle.
and i don't really believe in it for these stuff.

Uggh! I really want to shop so badly.
But everything i see, my mom says its not
nice, not worth it, will i use it?, waste of money.
so many comments.

and then i will start feeling like shit.
and end up not buying it and feel guilty.

I need braces.
My teeth is really bad and i need them
I want them.
but I'm scared of pulling out my teeth.
and I'm scared that when my teeth is straight and all,
my wisdom tooth comes out and spoils the arrangement.

I want to get new contacts.
I have only two pairs left!
Shit!
My dad will not buy it for me
that's for sure.

I need new clothes.
I'm so sick of seeing the same old clothes of mine.
okay i dunno what I'm nonsense.

I am not seeking your stupid attention
I'm just ranting so if your clever, ignore.

ciao!